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by Nadya Labi,
Wired, September 2007
He was a
balding, middle-aged FATHER OF TWO posing as a strapping young MARINE.
She was 17 and BLOND and looking for LOVE online. Their IM
infatuation grew into ROMANCE -- then the TRUTH EMERGED. Photo
illustrations by Christopher Griffith
Every morning of every weekday for 12 years, Thomas Montgomery punched
in at the Dynabrade factory in Clarence, a small town in upstate New
York. He strapped on his goggles and stood at his machine until the late
afternoon, churning out components for power tools. After work, he
walked the family dog, Shadow, and took his two daughters to swim
practice. He became such a regular presence at the local swim club that
he was named its vice president. He tried to be a good father and a
decent husband to his wife of 16 years, Cindy. There were a few things
he enjoyed — poker night on Fridays with the guys, playing Texas Hold 'Em
on Pogo.com, and the Dynabrade euchre tournament, which he dominated for
two years in a row. For the most part, though, life was uneventful.
Which may be why Montgomery looked at himself — a 45-year-old former
marine with a reddish mustache, bulging gut, and disappearing hair — and
decided to become someone else. That person, he wrote on Dynabrade
stationery that he stored in his toolbox at work, would be an
18-year-old marine named Tommy. He would be a black belt in karate, with
bullet scars on his left shoulder and right leg, thick red hair, and
impressive dimensions (6'2", 190 pounds, and a "9" dick"). Emboldened by
his new identity, Montgomery logged onto Pogo in the spring of 2005 and
met TalHotBlondbig50 — a 17-year-old from West Virginia, whose name, he
later learned, was Jessica.
He
began instant-messaging "Jessi," who later also went by the handle
"peaches_06_17," and the lies flowed easier with every press of the
Return key. His mom had died of cancer when he was 12, he told her, and
his father was a military man. At 17, Tommy had raped a cheerleader, and
his life became so hopeless that he enlisted in the Marines. After a
stint at boot camp in June to train as a sniper, he was headed to Iraq.
Montgomery concocted elaborate ruses to maintain Tommy's cover story,
creating a second identity as Tommy's dad, Tom Sr., who bore a striking
resemblance to the real Montgomery. Tommy's access to the Internet was
supposedly limited because of his military duties, so Dad, as Jessi soon
referred to him, began shuttling messages between the two lovers. He
also told Jessi to send any mail and packages for Tommy to him, because
he had contacts in Iraq and could get them to the young marine quickly.
Tommy's tales of hard luck drew Jessi in. He was in need of comfort, and
Jessi provided it, saying she was proud of him despite his mistakes.
Tommy responded by telling her that she was "the best thing that ever
happened to him." As their intimacy grew, he sent her a picture of a
young marine, claiming it was himself, and confided that he planned to
commit suicide in Iraq; she made him promise to stay alive for her. They
talked on the phone when they could. But if Jessi couldn't reach Tommy,
she sometimes IM'd Tom Sr. to talk about her lover. Jessi also emailed
Tommy photos of herself, care of Tom Sr. She lived up to her screen
handle, whether she was running her fingers through her flowing blond
hair or wading in a pool in a yellow bikini or showing off her long tan
legs in a denim miniskirt.
Jessi fell for Tommy, and Montgomery did, too — or, at least, for the
idea of himself as Tommy, a young man on his way to a future with the
prettiest girl around. Tommy told Jessi that he'd had their special
motto — the Marine saying "Always and Forever" — tattooed on his arm,
along with her name encircled by a heart. Jessi, for her part, crafted
video montages of herself for Tommy that were set to power ballads like
Aerosmith's "I Don't Want to Miss a Thing" and Lonestar's "I'm Already
There."
Jessi's photos provoked the couple's first major blowup: Montgomery
became convinced she'd sent her pictures to other online admirers and
accused her of betraying him. To apologize, Jessi sent him a snail-mail
letter, enclosing one of her G-strings and a sterling silver "key to my
heart" chain. She signed off the missive with "T&J" inside a heart.
Tommy forgave her, but Montgomery, in his role as "Dad" and occasional
intermediary, did not. She defended her mistake, writing in frustration
that Tommy "has let it go why wont you." Tom Sr. wrote, "because u will
hurt him and hes an idiot and will believe ur lying ass."
Meanwhile, Jessi and Tommy had settled into a routine, talking by phone
between 6:30 and 6:40 am and from 3:30 to 3:40 pm, when Jessi was led to
believe that her "sweet sexy marine" was off duty. By Christmas, about
eight months after they met online, Tommy proposed marriage and Jessi
accepted. He sent her poinsettias, and she sent him more G-strings and
dog tags engraved with the message TOM & JESSI ALWAYS & FOREVER. Jessi
worried constantly about Tommy's safety, writing, "I know your being
careful honey and you have the best with you but I also know anything
can happen." Anticipating his return from Iraq, Jessi planned for their
first night together, expressing nerves about what would be her "first
time." She ended on an optimistic note: "Won't be long until its Jessica
Blair Montgomery."
Thomas
Montgomery
Montgomery was consumed by his marathon online chats with Jessi. While
at work, he didn't stop talking about her, telling colleagues that he
planned to leave his wife and move to West Virginia. In the evening, he
would chase his daughters off the computer, planting himself in front of
the screen late into the night. Cindy couldn't compete with his new
obsession.
For New Year's, Montgomery made a resolution, which he scribbled on his
work pad. "On January 2, 2006, Tom Montgomery (46 years old) ceases to
exist and is replaced by an 18-year-old battle-scarred marine," he
wrote. "He is moving to West Virginia to be with the love of his life."
He vowed that he would set aside enough of his imaginary millions to
care for Cindy and the girls, even as he fantasized about the life he
would build with Jessi. When the new year began, however, he was still
stuck in his aging body and stale life. He wrote in frustration, "I wish
I would know the exact time I would change to new Tom to prepare for
it."
Cindy did not know about her husband's double, or rather triple, life.
But she did know that something had changed inside her two-story yellow
house. "He wouldn't get off the Internet," she said. "It gave him access
to something he wouldn't have had otherwise." Then, in February 2006,
she discovered some of Jessi's mementos and unraveled the truth. Cindy's
marriage might not have been the happiest, but contending with the
layers of deceit she uncovered — not to mention a teenager's lingerie —
was too much. "What I cannot believe is that you are living out some
bizarre fantasy — as father and son," she wrote in a note to her
husband. "If you want to separate — We can... but to continue to lie to
me & the kids while she is sending 'your son' gifts in the mail is not
acceptable."
The couple stayed in the same house, though Montgomery complained to a
coworker about being consigned to the basement. As a mother, however,
Cindy felt she had to do something for Jessi. She wrote a letter,
enclosing a recent photo of her family. "Let me introduce you to these
people," she said, describing her husband, Tom, her daughters, 12 and 14
years old, and herself — the "c," as she put it, in Montgomery's many
emails to Jessi from their account named "tcmontgomery1." There was no
son, she told Jessi, only her husband, a 46-year-old former marine.
"From what I am pulling from your letters you are much closer to [my
daughter's] age than mine let alone Tom's," Cindy wrote. "Are you over
the age of 18? In this alone, he can be prosecuted as a child predator."
Adding that Jessi could be her own daughter, Cindy offered some maternal
advice: "Do not trust words on a computer."
Brian Barrett
JESSI DIDN'T KNOW who to believe. Was there no Tommy? Or had Cindy
invented the story because she wanted Tommy for herself? Jessi found a
friend Montgomery had mentioned who also frequented Pogo:
"Beefcake1572," or Brian Barrett, a 22-year-old student at Buffalo State
College who worked part-time at Dynabrade with Montgomery and played
poker with him.
When Barrett confirmed his friend's trickery, Jessi was devastated. How
could her "everything," as she referred to Tommy, be a nothing? She
turned to Barrett for solace, playing Lottso, a kind of Bingo, with him
in the Princess Priceless room on Pogo and IMing him on Yahoo. Their
conversations quickly turned intimate. Soon, in public forums online,
she and Barrett called Montgomery a child predator and taunted him.
Montgomery was suspended from a game room. She shared her passwords with
Barrett, who would log onto her accounts and talk to Montgomery as Jessi
to humiliate him. At work, Barrett boasted about his new relationship.
Montgomery was furious. "Half the company" thought he was a "fucking
loser and predator" he IM'd Jessi. Parents no longer trusted him with
their kids. His life was so destroyed that he appeared to be
contemplating suicide. "U can say goodbye forever to me and Tommy," he
told Jessi.
Despite her own anger, Jessi couldn't turn her back completely on
Montgomery. He was all that remained of her lost Tommy, after all. "If
he existed I would still be holding him everynight and sharing dreams
with him everynight," she wrote Montgomery. He remarked bitterly that
she could "fill that void" with a different admirer. But Jessi continued
to placate him,saying, "I ache to be with Tommy," noting that the
18-year-old existed in Montgomery's continued love for her. Jessi
promised Montgomery she would stop talking to Barrett, saying she took
up with him mainly to get revenge. Her existence was a "living hell,"
she said, and she just wanted "everyone to hurt" like she did.
Despite her promises, Jessie continued her romance with Barrett.
Her conversations with him reflected ordinary teenager hang-ups; She
complained about her mother, talked about her preparations for prom, and
chatted about her part-time job as a lifeguard. Their sessions
often ended with Barrett typing one-handed while Jessi urged him on with
coments like "can I kiss something long and hard." At first, Jessi
wanted to hide the rekindled relationship from Montgomery, but Barrett
persuaded her to go public, and they posted about each other in their
online profiles. As they anticipated, Montgomery noticed
immediately. "I cant believe u chose her over r friendship," he
told Barrett. "U wanted her u got her just tell her to leave me
the fuck alone."
Jessi seemed torn between the two men. When Barrett wanted to
visit her during his vacation, she told him not to come. While he
was away and offline, she turned to Montgomery again, telling him that
she planned to break up with Barrett. Montgomery heaped abuse on
her. But he finally agreed to forgive her if she promised, yet
again, never to lie to him about Barrett. "If I find out any lies
were told to me u will lose something very close to u," Montgomery
warned her.
He
was training, he told Jessi, for "war." But he wasn't going to
Iraq. For the first time in 15 years, Montgomery was working out;
every day, he ran 5 miles and spent two hours at the gym. He began
making vague threats at work. One employee was so jittery that he
donned a bulletproof vest as a joke one day.
Montgomery and Jessi couldn't pull away from each other or their
computers. They spent so much time online "as friends" that
Montgomery was barely sleeping. He showered Jessi with attention,
and she enjoyed the adulation. If he wasn't engaged in intricate
analogies about his "snake" in her "wv [West Virginia] fox," he was
professing his love. But time and again, his
affection would veer toward violent jealousy at Jessi's online
boyfriends. He repeatedly threatened to post Jessi's home address online
so that the "niggers" could find her easily. Even as she talked him
down, Jessi seemed to thrive on the whiplash. whenever Montgomery
threatened to "delete" her from his life, she begged him not to.
In
late summer 2006, Montgomery found out that Jessi and Barrett were
talking again. The cycle of invectives began anew. Nothing seemed much
different at first. But then, after days of futile attempts to appease
Montgomery, Jessi went quiet. On September 13, 2006, he IM'd her at 1:33
in the morning, telling her "u r a whore and thats all u will ever be."
She wrote back "im leaving now" and signed off. Montgomery sent her
several more messages throughout the day, to little response. The next
day, he pinged her again: "hey whore u suck ur bf brians cock today."
The white IM window stared back at him. The following morning, on the
15th, he called her, waking her up. He was screaming, she says, and in
an uncontrollable rage. She hung up.
LATER THAT EVENING, at 10:16 pm, Barrett punched out of work and walked
to his white pickup truck in the Dynabrade parking lot. He swung open
the door of his truck, settling into his seat. Three shots pierced the
driver's side window, and Barrett slumped sideways. He'd been shot in
the neck and upper arm by what police believe was a .30-caliber carbine
rifle.
Just before midnight, Montgomery was at his computer. "U waiting for ur
bf," he wrote. At 2:15 in the morning, he tried again, writing "come on
cw ur bfbrian wont mind u talking to me." In interviews with detectives
several days after the murder, tipsters fingered Montgomery as the
likely culprit. He'd been bad-mouthing Barrett, and his behavior had
grown increasingly erratic. According to the detectives, a coworker said
that Montgomery told him "he wouldn't be stupid enough to leave shell
casings lying around if he were to kill someone." While standing at the
time clock two weeks before the killing, Montgomery had asked that same
employee what time Barrett got off work.
When detectives later examined Barrett's cell phone, they found Jessi's
number. Lieutenant Ron Kenyon called her in the middle of the
night to confirm that she'd had an online relationship with Montgomery
and to warn her that she might be in danger. He then sent a
message to her local police department in West Virginia, requesting that
a cop go to Jessi's home at the address she'd given him.
Officer J.L. Kirk arrived the next morning at a dingy white house next
to an automotive-parts dealer. But Jessi wasn't there. Her
mother, Mary, said that the teenager was away and that she had no way to
contact her. Kirk reported back to Kenyon, who insisted that he'd
just spoken to Jessi a few hours earlier and that she had to be in the
house. Kirk continued questioning Mary, whose manner struck him as
strange. The more he pressed, the more nervous she got until she
finally "came clean," as Kirk put it. She was the woman Kenyon had
spoken to. In fact, she was the woman Barrett had fallen so hard for.
And yes, Mary was the woman Montgomery may have killed for. She'd used
her daughter's identity to beguile the two men.
Back in Buffalo, Kenyon couldn't believe that the Jessi he'd talked to
was really her mother. "She was very convincing," he said. "She sounded
like an18-year-old girl to me." He drove to West Virginia to see the
truth himself -- that the lithe 18-year-old blonde of Barrett's and
Montgomery's fantasies was a plump 45-year-old married mother of two
with short brown hair.
When he was questioned about the murder, Montgomery told detectives he
needed to retrieve his lunch from his car, because his peaches would
spoil. The cops noted his taste for that fruit: A peach pit -- which
later tested positive for Montgomery's DNA -- had been. found next to
Barrett's truck. A leather cartridge case with dog hairs that they
surmised belonged to Shadow was found in the same area. In addition to
Jessi's G-strings at the Montgomery house, police also unearthed a photo
of his gun cabinet containing a .30-caliber rifle, now missing from the
cabinet. At the time of the questioning, Montgomery had no idea he'd
been conned by Mary.
On
November 27, police arrested Montgomery on murder charges. He denied
killing Barrett, saying he'd gone to a local restaurant and arrived home
between 10:00 and 10:10 pm, before the killing took place. His wife
estimated that he arrived a half hour or more later. Montgomery's cell
phone records also put him in the vicinity of Dynabrade at the time of
the murder. Furthermore, investigators intercepted a call that he placed
to his wife from prison that seemed to suggest the cartridge case was
his. Of course there were dog hairs on the cartridge case, he told her.
Didn't she remember the state of his car?
Then there was the matter of the hundreds of pages of correspondence and
dozens of photos he kept on his computer to document, and savor, every
moment of his time with Jessi: It was a digital paper trail
showing a man careening out of control. Ken Case, the assistant
district attorney who worked on the case, said, "He was a guy who prior
to this happening was a very dedicated father. To make that much of a
transformation, as a result of communicating with a fictitious person,
is pretty frightening."
When I caught up with Mary outside her home, she strode to the family
van in the driveway and took off, then hit the brake abruptly to ask me
who I was. She wore a gray T-shirt, jeans, and black flip-flops; her
nails and toenails were perfectly manicured. She burst into tears at the
mention of Barrett's murder, her French tips and diamond ring glinting
in the sun as she pushed a crushed paper towel under her sunglasses to
dab away the tears. She begged WIRED not to use her last name.
Locals say she was "one of the best parents around" and a devoted
cheerleader at Jessi's basketball and softball games. The principal of
the middle school that her children attended was so impressed with Mary
and her maternal dedication that he hired her for part-time clerical
work. In all of Jessi's 18 years, Mary told me, she had missed only one
of her daughter's games, to work the polls at election time. How
could a mother like that, I asked her, hijack her daughter's identity to
seduce strangers? Her answers, unsatisfactory as they are, suggest a
profound capacity for self-deception.
Mary said she joined Pogo a few years ago to relax and kill some time.
It was only after she paid for the membership, however, that she
realized she'd used Jessi's screen name. Mary was directed to a teen
room, and she never bothered to correct the mistake. She didn't intend
for her many admirers to fall in love with her.
Nor did she fall in love with any of them; she says she is happily
married to her husband of 23 years. Brian was a "sweetheart" and when he
initiated the flirtation, she didn't know how to discourage it without
revealing her true identity. Tommy, she said, "was a child who needed
someone to show him they cared."
Why, then, did she continue talking to Montgomery once she knew Tommy
didn't exist? She says she worried he would take advantage of a
real 18-year-old. "I should have just let it go," Mary conceded.
But she didn't, and then she had to keep talking to him to prevent him
from doing harm-first to himself, it seemed, and later to her own family
members.
That's the story, more or less, that Mary seems to have told her
daughter, whom she refers to lovingly as "my princess"; her husband;
and, after boarding a plane for the first time in her life, the grand
jury in Buffalo.
MONTGOMERY SPENT the summer awaiting trial at the Erie County Holding
Center in downtown Buffalo. The beefy 200-plus-pound man in his mug shot
had disappeared; he wore round wire-rimmed glasses, and his orange
uniform hung from his now-frail frame. He tried to commit suicide in
April, he said, after receiving a letter from his daughters stating they
wanted nothing more to do with him. His marriage to Cindy fell apart,
and she stopped visiting in March.
He
tried to explain what drew him to his computer. "When I'm talking to
Cindy or you like this, face-to-face," he said, "it's hard for me to say
what I feel." As Tommy, however, the words came easily. And then there
was Jessi. He loved her, or at least believed he loved her, though he
knew he was "never going to meet her." His plan was to "kill Tommy off"
in Iraq, but Cindy intervened too soon. He nearly committed suicide
because of his guilt about having lied to Jessi. Why, I asked, when he
was suspicious of so much of what Jessi said, did he believe she was who
she claimed? "She kept sending pictures," he explained. "One picture,
maybe not. But there were so many pictures over a period of time."
Montgomery insisted he wasn't the killer. He claimed Barrett was
getting calls at work from lots of people who didn't like him, an
argument he said will be central to his defense. Montgomery added
that when Jessi first met Barrett he was happy for her -- happy that
she'd managed to find someone her own age.
NADYA LABI (nadya.labi@hotmail.com)
is a writer in New York.
Internet Lies:
An IM conversation between Montgomery and Jessi, April 17, 2006.
Warning: The following transcript contains strong language.
Conversation joined at Mon April 17 6:17:27 PM 2006.
MarineSniper1000 (6:17:27 PM):
r u on
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:17:36 PM):
im here
MarineSniper1000 (6:17:48 PM):
nice text u sent me
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:17:57 PM):
sorry
MarineSniper1000 (6:17:59 PM):
u want to suck him off too
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:18:06 PM):
no thanx
MarineSniper1000 (6:18:20 PM):
its ur life u do what u want with it
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:18:35 PM):
i was just teasing
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:18:45 PM):
u know im not that way
MarineSniper1000 (6:18:53 PM):
u know he wants u so u want him hard and hot
MarineSniper1000 (6:19:03 PM):
and u beg to do it
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:19:12 PM):
he wont leave me alone
MarineSniper1000 (6:19:28 PM):
with messeges like that what do u expect
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:19:43 PM):
him to get tired of it and go away
MarineSniper1000 (6:19:50 PM):
can i make u hard and hot pleeeeeeeese
MarineSniper1000 (6:19:59 PM):
u r asking for him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:20:22 PM):
i dont want him tom
MarineSniper1000 (6:20:26 PM):
i can send him bikini pics if u want
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:20:35 PM):
please no
MarineSniper1000 (6:21:00 PM):
y not u want him hard and hot
MarineSniper1000 (6:21:17 PM):
y dont u model it for him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:21:20 PM):
i was only teasing him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:21:23 PM):
tom stop
MarineSniper1000 (6:21:33 PM):
and u want him to leave u alone now
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:21:40 PM):
yes
MarineSniper1000 (6:21:47 PM):
u r a dumb blonde
MarineSniper1000 (6:22:08 PM):
u tease him with messeges about making him hard then u want him to leave
u alone
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:22:10 PM):
oh thanx
MarineSniper1000 (6:22:26 PM):
y do u send texts like that then
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:22:42 PM):
no reason
MarineSniper1000 (6:22:52 PM):
u get what u deserve
MarineSniper1000 (6:23:04 PM):
u tease him he thinks u want him
MarineSniper1000 (6:23:23 PM):
especially when u text him messeges about getting his dick hard
MarineSniper1000 (6:23:39 PM):
its ur life jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:23:47 PM):
ok i was wrong
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:23:52 PM):
i wont do it again
MarineSniper1000 (6:23:57 PM):
too late
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:24:03 PM):
why
MarineSniper1000 (6:24:14 PM):
he knows u want him now
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:24:23 PM):
i dont want him
MarineSniper1000 (6:24:26 PM):
so tommy is gone forever
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:24:31 PM):
no tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:24:33 PM):
stop that
MarineSniper1000 (6:24:44 PM):
yes jessi he leaves with me on sat
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:24:49 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (6:24:52 PM):
u got a new tease
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:25:05 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (6:25:24 PM):
yes u do u sent him a messege u want his dick hard
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:25:39 PM):
tom please stop
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:25:58 PM):
i said i was wrong to do that and i wont send anymore i promise
MarineSniper1000 (6:26:13 PM):
its too late jessi u opened that box
MarineSniper1000 (6:26:40 PM):
on friday or sat u can say goodbye forever to me and tommy
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:26:53 PM):
why
MarineSniper1000 (6:27:03 PM):
we r leaving for good
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:27:07 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (6:27:29 PM):
yes jessi u r having fun in ur life now so its time for us to leave
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:27:42 PM):
no tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:27:51 PM):
dont take tommy
MarineSniper1000 (6:28:09 PM):
hes going with me u replaced him with timmy
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:28:29 PM):
please dont say that
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:28:32 PM):
its not true
MarineSniper1000 (6:28:50 PM):
according to the text i got it is true
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:29:01 PM):
no it isnt
MarineSniper1000 (6:29:12 PM):
u flirted and got tommy now u flirted and got timmy
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:29:25 PM):
ok tom
MarineSniper1000 (6:29:31 PM):
so its time for tommy to be put to rest
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:29:52 PM):
i will leave
MarineSniper1000 (6:29:56 PM):
i wish i had a perfect life like u and brian do
MarineSniper1000 (6:30:10 PM):
that is up to u jessi its ur choice
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:30:15 PM):
what does brian have to do with this
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:30:34 PM):
ur not going to forgive this one
MarineSniper1000 (6:30:36 PM):
he left a few copies of ur conversation on my tool box today
MarineSniper1000 (6:30:52 PM):
half the company knows now
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:31:00 PM):
knows what
MarineSniper1000 (6:31:09 PM):
what u 2 talked about
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:31:14 PM):
no tom
MarineSniper1000 (6:31:25 PM):
how u told him im a fucking loser and predator
MarineSniper1000 (6:31:38 PM):
i dont have a life
MarineSniper1000 (6:31:57 PM):
3 hours u 2 were talking about me
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:32:01 PM):
what did u say to him
MarineSniper1000 (6:32:07 PM):
i didnt
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:32:12 PM):
why not
MarineSniper1000 (6:32:22 PM):
its not worth it anymore
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:32:58 PM):
i will get out of ur life tom ..... i have done to much damage to be
undone now.... im so sorry
MarineSniper1000 (6:33:07 PM):
u made it perfectly clear who u want by ur talk with brian
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:33:14 PM):
u will never forgive me
MarineSniper1000 (6:33:17 PM):
that is up to u jessi
MarineSniper1000 (6:33:25 PM):
i will on sat
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:33:27 PM):
what do u want tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:33:36 PM):
u will what on sat
MarineSniper1000 (6:33:45 PM):
forgive u
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:33:52 PM):
why saturday
MarineSniper1000 (6:33:59 PM):
im leaving
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:34:07 PM):
where r u going
MarineSniper1000 (6:34:14 PM):
to hell i hope
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:34:19 PM):
tom stop
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:34:27 PM):
why r u saying that
MarineSniper1000 (6:34:28 PM):
my heart will exist no more after sat
MarineSniper1000 (6:35:03 PM):
so i will forgive u with a email then the tom and tommy u knew will no
longer exist
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:35:21 PM):
no tom u cant do that
MarineSniper1000 (6:35:30 PM):
yes i can and i will
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:35:34 PM):
why
MarineSniper1000 (6:35:37 PM):
i will be alone
MarineSniper1000 (6:35:55 PM):
and will never feel compassion for another person til i die
MarineSniper1000 (6:36:28 PM):
u could have been honest with me jessi instead of crying on brians
shoulder
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:36:42 PM):
i know
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:36:47 PM):
im sorry tom
MarineSniper1000 (6:36:56 PM):
its too late jessi
MarineSniper1000 (6:37:10 PM):
this fucking loser is leaving on sat
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:37:24 PM):
please dont do that
MarineSniper1000 (6:37:32 PM):
y do u care
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:37:41 PM):
u know i care and why
MarineSniper1000 (6:38:06 PM):
after what i read u dont give a shit about me or ur tommy
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:38:22 PM):
ur wrong
MarineSniper1000 (6:38:26 PM):
do u want me to repeat what u said or do u remember
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:38:36 PM):
no i remember
MarineSniper1000 (6:38:50 PM):
u still have it dont u
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:38:55 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (6:39:31 PM):
then u begged brian to stay with u when he told u to leave him alone
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:40:21 PM):
life was so much better when u were my tommy
MarineSniper1000 (6:40:38 PM):
y couldnt u tell me u wanted to be with brian
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:40:47 PM):
i dont want to be with brian
MarineSniper1000 (6:40:50 PM):
tommy is leaving u on saturday
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:40:57 PM):
i dont want to be with anyone but tommy
MarineSniper1000 (6:41:10 PM):
sure sounded like it with what u wrote to him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:41:26 PM):
tom please stop
MarineSniper1000 (6:41:39 PM):
y does the truth hurt jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:41:58 PM):
no the truth doesnt hurt but u r hurting me
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:42:05 PM):
the truth i can handle
MarineSniper1000 (6:42:31 PM):
then tell me y u say u dont want to be with brian to me but u tell him u
want to be with him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:43:15 PM):
i dont have that answer
MarineSniper1000 (6:43:25 PM):
then it is true
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:43:29 PM):
no it is not
MarineSniper1000 (6:43:49 PM):
y did u beg him to stay with u then
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:44:05 PM):
i didnt
MarineSniper1000 (6:44:22 PM):
according to what u wrote please dont leave brian
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:44:36 PM):
i didnt write that
MarineSniper1000 (6:44:49 PM):
it has ur name on it
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:44:54 PM):
show me
MarineSniper1000 (6:45:00 PM):
jessi xxxxxxxxxxx
MarineSniper1000 (6:45:09 PM):
isnt that ur name on yahoo
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:45:24 PM):
yes
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:45:28 PM):
show me
MarineSniper1000 (6:45:30 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (6:45:39 PM):
u ask brian to send it
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:45:50 PM):
i dont talk to him anymore
MarineSniper1000 (6:45:53 PM):
i am mailing all of it to u on saturday
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:45:56 PM):
im asking u
MarineSniper1000 (6:46:06 PM):
u will get it sat
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:46:17 PM):
why not now
MarineSniper1000 (6:46:32 PM):
im not done reading what u 2 talked about
MarineSniper1000 (6:46:54 PM):
good thing u 2 have a perfect life so u can talk about me
MarineSniper1000 (6:47:10 PM):
3 hours jessi u cried to him
MarineSniper1000 (6:47:22 PM):
and that is only one night
MarineSniper1000 (6:47:52 PM):
then u have the gall to tell me u love me and want me to stay in ur life
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:48:13 PM):
ok tom
MarineSniper1000 (6:48:19 PM):
tommy and i have been replaced
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:48:23 PM):
no
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:48:29 PM):
but that is what u want to believe
MarineSniper1000 (6:48:46 PM):
y shouldnt i u want his dick hard for u
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:48:55 PM):
whos
MarineSniper1000 (6:49:00 PM):
timmy
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:49:10 PM):
no i do not
MarineSniper1000 (6:49:22 PM):
u said so i have proof
MarineSniper1000 (6:49:31 PM):
u even begged him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:49:33 PM):
it was a tease tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:49:38 PM):
nothing more
MarineSniper1000 (6:49:48 PM):
but u dont want him around u
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:49:55 PM):
nope
MarineSniper1000 (6:50:03 PM):
then tease him some more
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:50:12 PM):
i told u no more
MarineSniper1000 (6:50:19 PM):
tell him u want to suck him off
MarineSniper1000 (6:50:27 PM):
he will leave u alone
MarineSniper1000 (6:50:45 PM):
guys dont like girls that tease them and beg for it
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:50:51 PM):
why r u so angry with me
MarineSniper1000 (6:51:10 PM):
because of what u said to brian
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:51:20 PM):
i said i was sorry
MarineSniper1000 (6:51:24 PM):
and u wont admit u want to be with him
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:51:54 PM):
there is nothing to admit
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:52:01 PM):
i only want tommy
MarineSniper1000 (6:52:12 PM):
he is leaving sat night
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:52:18 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (6:52:28 PM):
yes we r going to hell
MarineSniper1000 (6:52:44 PM):
no more feelings for either of us
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:52:50 PM):
then i will see u there
MarineSniper1000 (6:52:58 PM):
no u wont
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:53:07 PM):
my life is a living hell
MarineSniper1000 (6:53:32 PM):
u were my only refugee from my hell but u turned on me
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:53:54 PM):
tom
MarineSniper1000 (6:54:03 PM):
u ran to brian so u got what u wanted
MarineSniper1000 (6:54:31 PM):
u will never find tommy again after sat
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:54:33 PM):
i will never get what i want
MarineSniper1000 (6:54:50 PM):
u did u ran to brian
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:54:56 PM):
no tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:55:00 PM):
ur wrong
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:55:26 PM):
the only running i want to do is u know where and with who
MarineSniper1000 (6:55:54 PM):
u will never get there jessi tommy is leaving u forever
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:56:23 PM):
stop it
MarineSniper1000 (6:56:27 PM):
if he existed u would be hurting him anyway
MarineSniper1000 (6:56:46 PM):
with ur flirting with brian and tim
MarineSniper1000 (6:57:27 PM):
i just hope tim is nice to u
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:57:39 PM):
if he existed i would still be holding him everynight and sharing dreams
with him everynight... my pain wouldnt be here
MarineSniper1000 (6:58:05 PM):
now u have ur brithers roommate to fill that void
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:58:16 PM):
ur wrong
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:58:27 PM):
that void will never be filled
MarineSniper1000 (6:58:34 PM):
maybe he is ur next tommy
MarineSniper1000 (6:58:40 PM):
he loves u like tommy did
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:58:50 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (6:58:54 PM):
he wants u like tommy did
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:58:57 PM):
no
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:59:04 PM):
what about u
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:59:09 PM):
do u still want me
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:59:12 PM):
like tommy did
MarineSniper1000 (6:59:26 PM):
u told him u would make him hard and hot like u did to tommy
MarineSniper1000 (6:59:51 PM):
u know i do
TalHotBlondbig50 (6:59:54 PM):
i was teasing him
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:00:01 PM):
i was serious with tommy
MarineSniper1000 (7:00:15 PM):
u want to ask michelle about terasing boys
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:00:18 PM):
i ache to be with tommy
MarineSniper1000 (7:00:22 PM):
teasing
MarineSniper1000 (7:00:37 PM):
when he rapes u for being a dicktease
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:00:41 PM):
i dont ever want to talk to that bitch again
MarineSniper1000 (7:01:13 PM):
well keep teasing tim and u will have something in common with her
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:01:34 PM):
i will never have anything in common with that bitch
MarineSniper1000 (7:01:52 PM):
u will when u get ur ass raped for dick teasing
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:02:00 PM):
i told u no more
MarineSniper1000 (7:02:16 PM):
too late u gave him the signal u wanted him
MarineSniper1000 (7:02:24 PM):
beg him some more
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:02:26 PM):
he knows i dont want him
MarineSniper1000 (7:02:38 PM):
pleeeeese tim let me make u hard
MarineSniper1000 (7:02:52 PM):
thats sure tell him ur not interested
MarineSniper1000 (7:02:58 PM):
telling
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:03:07 PM):
he already knows
MarineSniper1000 (7:03:18 PM):
and u sent that anyway
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:03:22 PM):
yep
MarineSniper1000 (7:03:34 PM):
u dont deserve tommy anymore
MarineSniper1000 (7:03:43 PM):
he is leaving u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:03:48 PM):
do i deserve u
MarineSniper1000 (7:03:57 PM):
u dont want me
MarineSniper1000 (7:04:15 PM):
u made that clear in ur conversation with brian
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:04:41 PM):
if u believe that why did u accept my invite to talk
MarineSniper1000 (7:05:03 PM):
so i could find out what else u told him
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:05:19 PM):
did u get the answers u wanted
MarineSniper1000 (7:05:32 PM):
jessi it doesnt matter u found a new game to play with a new boy
MarineSniper1000 (7:06:40 PM):
u have 2 new ones to play games with
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:06:47 PM):
ok tom obviously u dont want to talk to me anymore .... i will leave u
alone..... all im doing is causing u more hurt
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:06:54 PM):
no tom im alone
MarineSniper1000 (7:06:58 PM):
that is ur choice
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:07:05 PM):
i sleep alone with my pain
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:07:19 PM):
do u want me to stay or leave
MarineSniper1000 (7:07:23 PM):
see u let tommy go already
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:07:35 PM):
u know what i mean
MarineSniper1000 (7:07:38 PM):
that is up to u jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:07:44 PM):
no im asking u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:07:48 PM):
what do u want
MarineSniper1000 (7:07:57 PM):
u know what i want
MarineSniper1000 (7:08:22 PM):
i didnt run to brian to cry and tell him im a fucking loser
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:08:33 PM):
no tom im the loser
MarineSniper1000 (7:08:59 PM):
no jessi u have 2 boys that care for u but u dont want to look at them
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:09:07 PM):
no i dont
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:09:12 PM):
i want tommy
MarineSniper1000 (7:09:22 PM):
u cant have him anymore
MarineSniper1000 (7:09:36 PM):
we r leaving saturday night
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:09:37 PM):
because im a loser
MarineSniper1000 (7:09:45 PM):
no u r not
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:09:57 PM):
i do stupid things
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:10:10 PM):
tom i hurt so bad
MarineSniper1000 (7:10:22 PM):
not stupid u just dont think them out before u act
MarineSniper1000 (7:10:47 PM):
so do i honey so do i
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:10:53 PM):
i know
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:10:58 PM):
we both do
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:11:16 PM):
all i want in this world his tommy
MarineSniper1000 (7:11:36 PM):
jessi my feelings for u might be wrong by some people but im so in love
with u i cant let go
MarineSniper1000 (7:11:58 PM):
i have to leave honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:12:04 PM):
why tom
MarineSniper1000 (7:12:23 PM):
because i can never ever have u as i want u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:12:36 PM):
dont go
MarineSniper1000 (7:12:57 PM):
y jessi u can get on with ur life then
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:13:14 PM):
i have no life
MarineSniper1000 (7:13:23 PM):
honey yes u do
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:13:29 PM):
all i do is keep making stupid mistakes
MarineSniper1000 (7:13:43 PM):
honey just think before u act
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:13:43 PM):
my grades r dropping
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:13:55 PM):
i hate softball
MarineSniper1000 (7:14:09 PM):
if u dont like tim dont text him sexual things
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:14:09 PM):
i fight with my ma all the time
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:14:21 PM):
i wont do it anymore
MarineSniper1000 (7:14:32 PM):
honey do me a favor
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:14:44 PM):
i just want everyone to hurt like i do
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:14:49 PM):
what
MarineSniper1000 (7:14:57 PM):
before u act
MarineSniper1000 (7:15:13 PM):
just think about the pain or trouble it might cause
MarineSniper1000 (7:15:21 PM):
i didnt think about it
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:15:21 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (7:15:35 PM):
r u saving this
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:15:38 PM):
i will do better
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:15:40 PM):
no tom
MarineSniper1000 (7:15:51 PM):
honey i want to confess to u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:15:59 PM):
confess what
MarineSniper1000 (7:16:08 PM):
my feelings
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:16:12 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (7:16:31 PM):
honey i want to hold u so bad my body aches to hold u
MarineSniper1000 (7:16:52 PM):
i want to be with u so bad i would do anything to do that
MarineSniper1000 (7:17:18 PM):
im so in love with u honey that i would sell my soul to the devil
MarineSniper1000 (7:17:38 PM):
im so sorry for all the pain i have caused u with my lies
MarineSniper1000 (7:17:53 PM):
but jessi my feelings for u r true
MarineSniper1000 (7:18:26 PM):
that is y i must leave and go where i can find peace for me
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:18:42 PM):
where will u go
MarineSniper1000 (7:19:10 PM):
i dont know honey probably hell bevcause of all the hurt i have caused u
MarineSniper1000 (7:19:45 PM):
i will know when i get there
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:20:17 PM):
i wont ever hear from u again after saturday will i
MarineSniper1000 (7:20:28 PM):
no honey u wont
MarineSniper1000 (7:20:37 PM):
im sorry
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:20:58 PM):
ur doing this because of what i did arent u
MarineSniper1000 (7:21:10 PM):
no honey u r so wrong
MarineSniper1000 (7:21:24 PM):
im doing this because i hurt u
MarineSniper1000 (7:21:51 PM):
i cant take my heart aching that i hurt the only thing i love
MarineSniper1000 (7:22:05 PM):
or will ever love again
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:22:23 PM):
but ur girls tom u cant leave them
MarineSniper1000 (7:22:32 PM):
yes i can
MarineSniper1000 (7:22:42 PM):
im tired of hurting them too
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:22:46 PM):
i know u love them
MarineSniper1000 (7:22:53 PM):
i do jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:23:13 PM):
then u should stay and make things better with them
MarineSniper1000 (7:23:23 PM):
its too late honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:23:32 PM):
it cant be
MarineSniper1000 (7:23:39 PM):
for u or them i have hurt u all too much
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:24:05 PM):
it will get better tom
MarineSniper1000 (7:24:14 PM):
yes after im gone
MarineSniper1000 (7:24:42 PM):
they dont need a dad that criticizes them all the time
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:24:52 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (7:25:10 PM):
did u know i told u i loved u more then i have told my own kids
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:25:27 PM):
why do u do that
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:25:42 PM):
no i didnt know that
MarineSniper1000 (7:25:58 PM):
because i dont know how to praise them
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:26:15 PM):
u didnt have a problen telling me
MarineSniper1000 (7:26:23 PM):
im so proud of them and what they do but i just cant tell them that
MarineSniper1000 (7:26:39 PM):
i know honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:26:45 PM):
then tell them
MarineSniper1000 (7:27:04 PM):
honey its too late
MarineSniper1000 (7:27:32 PM):
im leaving while sarah is getting her coaches award for the top swimmer
on the club
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:27:52 PM):
u should be there for her
MarineSniper1000 (7:27:59 PM):
i cant jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:28:02 PM):
yes u can
MarineSniper1000 (7:28:17 PM):
too many parents dont trust me with their kids anymore
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:28:30 PM):
im so sorry tom
MarineSniper1000 (7:28:44 PM):
doesnt matter jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:28:50 PM):
it does matter
MarineSniper1000 (7:28:58 PM):
not to me anymore
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:29:17 PM):
do u care for me at all
MarineSniper1000 (7:29:28 PM):
yes i do
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:29:33 PM):
then fix it
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:29:37 PM):
ur not a quiter
MarineSniper1000 (7:29:52 PM):
jessi brian told one of the girls on the team
MarineSniper1000 (7:30:07 PM):
what u said about me being a predator
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:30:08 PM):
oh tom i never meant for that to happen
MarineSniper1000 (7:30:20 PM):
doesnt matter now
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:30:27 PM):
it matters to me
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:30:32 PM):
i feel like shit aboutit
MarineSniper1000 (7:30:36 PM):
too late jessi
MarineSniper1000 (7:30:46 PM):
im labeled a molester now
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:30:59 PM):
oh god tom please let me fix that
MarineSniper1000 (7:31:08 PM):
u cant jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:31:13 PM):
i will send a letter saying i lied
MarineSniper1000 (7:31:33 PM):
it doesnt matter what u say they believe i am one
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:31:53 PM):
just because he said so without proof
MarineSniper1000 (7:32:06 PM):
he showed her the paper
MarineSniper1000 (7:32:19 PM):
she read everything i have
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:32:32 PM):
oh god tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:32:38 PM):
why r u talking to me then
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:32:43 PM):
why dont u hate me
MarineSniper1000 (7:32:54 PM):
i cant hate u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:32:58 PM):
u shoudl
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:33:00 PM):
should
MarineSniper1000 (7:33:08 PM):
no honey u should hate me
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:33:13 PM):
i cant
MarineSniper1000 (7:33:23 PM):
u should
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:33:30 PM):
i cant
MarineSniper1000 (7:33:40 PM):
can u tell me one thing honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:33:44 PM):
yes
MarineSniper1000 (7:33:56 PM):
y did u have to tell brian all that
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:34:20 PM):
i just wanted to ruin ur friendship with him tom nothing more
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:34:32 PM):
i never dreamed he would do that
MarineSniper1000 (7:34:38 PM):
y so u could be with him
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:34:42 PM):
no
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:34:49 PM):
i dont want to be with him
MarineSniper1000 (7:35:14 PM):
he ruined r friendship by telling u about bambi and the other pogo girls
MarineSniper1000 (7:35:30 PM):
y did u want us to be friends then
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:35:50 PM):
because i felt guilty for what i said
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:35:57 PM):
i tried to fix it
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:36:05 PM):
only made things worse
MarineSniper1000 (7:36:24 PM):
u tried to fix it by telling him i was a predator
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:36:36 PM):
no not that
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:36:51 PM):
i just thought he would stop talking to u
MarineSniper1000 (7:37:02 PM):
u lied for him didnt u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:37:10 PM):
no
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:37:19 PM):
why would i lie for him
MarineSniper1000 (7:37:24 PM):
he told u i slept with bambi
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:37:30 PM):
no he did not
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:37:40 PM):
i threw that part in
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:38:20 PM):
r u here
MarineSniper1000 (7:38:29 PM):
yes
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:38:31 PM):
ok
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:38:45 PM):
u still dont believe me
MarineSniper1000 (7:38:53 PM):
y did u cry to him so many nights
MarineSniper1000 (7:38:59 PM):
about me
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:39:02 PM):
i didnt
MarineSniper1000 (7:39:18 PM):
jessi i have sheets for almost everynight
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:39:28 PM):
no u dont
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:39:32 PM):
u cant
MarineSniper1000 (7:39:35 PM):
yes i do
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:39:37 PM):
didnt happen
MarineSniper1000 (7:39:49 PM):
u talked to him everynight
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:40:18 PM):
i talked to him for a few nights but u got upset and i chose u to talk
to
MarineSniper1000 (7:40:33 PM):
when we were in the gamerooms u talked to him on yahoo
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:40:43 PM):
yes but i stopped
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:40:56 PM):
i chose u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:40:58 PM):
remember
MarineSniper1000 (7:41:03 PM):
u better talk to him then
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:41:10 PM):
no thanx
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:41:22 PM):
i promised u i would not
MarineSniper1000 (7:41:26 PM):
u gave up brian didnt u so we wouldnt fight
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:41:42 PM):
i hate fighting with u
MarineSniper1000 (7:41:50 PM):
u didnt answer
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:42:11 PM):
i gave up talking to him because he meant nothing to me and u did
MarineSniper1000 (7:42:29 PM):
but u wanted to talk to him though
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:42:32 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (7:42:45 PM):
jessi u already admitted that to me
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:42:51 PM):
we have been through this tom
MarineSniper1000 (7:43:12 PM):
u told me u gave him up so we wouldnt fight
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:43:24 PM):
i did at one time but i dont anymore
MarineSniper1000 (7:43:47 PM):
so i cost u another friend
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:44:01 PM):
tom i gave up because we were fighting and he has served his purpose
MarineSniper1000 (7:44:17 PM):
jessi please dont patronize me
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:44:24 PM):
im not
MarineSniper1000 (7:44:29 PM):
yes u r
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:44:32 PM):
how so
MarineSniper1000 (7:44:53 PM):
u told me u liked talking to him but u gave him up so we would stop
fighting
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:45:07 PM):
that is part truth
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:45:24 PM):
hang on tom i gotta peeeeeeeeeeeeee really bad
MarineSniper1000 (7:45:31 PM):
so i cost u another friend
MarineSniper1000 (7:45:34 PM):
ok
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:47:02 PM):
ok i hurried
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:47:08 PM):
i can sit still now
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:47:22 PM):
tom he really wasnt a friend
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:47:44 PM):
did u leave
MarineSniper1000 (7:49:29 PM):
no
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:49:40 PM):
just not talking then
MarineSniper1000 (7:49:47 PM):
so u cry on strangers shoulders then
MarineSniper1000 (7:50:01 PM):
and tell them shit like u did
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:50:15 PM):
i used him as much as he obviously used me
MarineSniper1000 (7:50:24 PM):
for 2 to 3 hours a night
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:50:42 PM):
why do we have to keep doing this
MarineSniper1000 (7:50:51 PM):
what else did u tell him
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:51:04 PM):
u have it u know
MarineSniper1000 (7:51:19 PM):
im trying to understand y u would tell someone not a friend what u did
MarineSniper1000 (7:51:38 PM):
but u left out the parts about u
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:51:42 PM):
he kept telling me what a great guy u were
MarineSniper1000 (7:52:08 PM):
well he knows im not anymore
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:52:18 PM):
then u can tell him if u want him to know what i am
MarineSniper1000 (7:52:27 PM):
so does half the company now
MarineSniper1000 (7:52:43 PM):
so u see i have no choice but to leave
MarineSniper1000 (7:52:54 PM):
or else eat a barrel
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:52:57 PM):
see i told u it was my fault
MarineSniper1000 (7:53:09 PM):
no its not its mine
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:53:20 PM):
its mine
MarineSniper1000 (7:53:37 PM):
no i lied to u first and u got even
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:53:45 PM):
if i had just accepted it all none of this would have happened
MarineSniper1000 (7:54:13 PM):
y did u ever contact brian for anyway
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:55:05 PM):
i remembered u telling me about him one time and i thought he might tell
me the letter i got was wrong
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:55:33 PM):
i held that letter for a long time
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:55:38 PM):
i didnt want it to be true
MarineSniper1000 (7:55:49 PM):
im sorry
MarineSniper1000 (7:56:03 PM):
jessi can i ask u something
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:56:21 PM):
all those times u kept asking me if something was wrong
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:56:23 PM):
yes
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:56:33 PM):
u knew
MarineSniper1000 (7:57:10 PM):
do u think that tim could be ur next tommy when u learn to love and
trust again
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:57:24 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (7:57:39 PM):
y not its obvious he likes u alot
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:57:51 PM):
doesnt matter what he likes
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:58:06 PM):
im not getting close to anyone
MarineSniper1000 (7:58:10 PM):
so u wont give him a cxhance then
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:58:15 PM):
nope
MarineSniper1000 (7:58:33 PM):
now u know why tommy and i must leave
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:58:47 PM):
no i dont
MarineSniper1000 (7:58:59 PM):
yes u do but u wont admit it
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:59:14 PM):
i cant let go
MarineSniper1000 (7:59:23 PM):
u have to
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:59:25 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (7:59:40 PM):
jessi it isnt any easier for me to go
TalHotBlondbig50 (7:59:50 PM):
then dont
MarineSniper1000 (7:59:56 PM):
my heart cant take this
MarineSniper1000 (8:00:12 PM):
i compare every blonde to u
MarineSniper1000 (8:00:28 PM):
when my phone rings i hope it is u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:00:43 PM):
i know that feeling
MarineSniper1000 (8:00:46 PM):
honey i want something i cant have
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:00:53 PM):
me too
MarineSniper1000 (8:01:09 PM):
so its best if i just leave
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:01:24 PM):
best for who
MarineSniper1000 (8:01:28 PM):
i need to turn my heart black
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:01:38 PM):
no tom
MarineSniper1000 (8:01:43 PM):
both of us
MarineSniper1000 (8:01:53 PM):
u need to get on with ur life
MarineSniper1000 (8:02:13 PM):
u have college and u never know u might find a nice boy there
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:02:37 PM):
i cant believe that after all we have gone through u can just turn ur
back and walk away
MarineSniper1000 (8:03:04 PM):
its not easy honey but i have to
MarineSniper1000 (8:03:25 PM):
neither one of us can go on with our lives like this
MarineSniper1000 (8:04:03 PM):
honey u dont want the same thing i do in this relationship
MarineSniper1000 (8:04:38 PM):
r u there
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:04:45 PM):
im here
MarineSniper1000 (8:05:02 PM):
u want friendship but i want more
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:05:40 PM):
my head knows ur right but my heart says different
MarineSniper1000 (8:06:05 PM):
honey u told me tommy will always be in ur heart
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:06:25 PM):
he is and he will be always and forever
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:06:32 PM):
u remember those words
MarineSniper1000 (8:06:54 PM):
u dont need me around to remind u u have who u want in ur heart
MarineSniper1000 (8:07:13 PM):
yes i do honey i will always remember them
MarineSniper1000 (8:07:31 PM):
jessi i just remind u of the pain
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:07:37 PM):
why does it have to hurt so bad
MarineSniper1000 (8:07:50 PM):
letting me go
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:08:06 PM):
ur not giving me a choice
MarineSniper1000 (8:08:39 PM):
what choice do we have
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:09:04 PM):
i dont know tom
MarineSniper1000 (8:09:07 PM):
what hurts so bad
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:09:38 PM):
know that after saturday i wont hear from u again
MarineSniper1000 (8:09:45 PM):
honey i want u as a lover and a friend but u only what friendship
MarineSniper1000 (8:10:09 PM):
dont u think its for the best
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:10:35 PM):
i dont know
MarineSniper1000 (8:10:53 PM):
honey what do u want from me
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:10:57 PM):
it feels like i have to close a chapter of my life
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:11:32 PM):
im afraid
MarineSniper1000 (8:11:41 PM):
of what honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:11:58 PM):
to be alone
MarineSniper1000 (8:12:21 PM):
u wont baby
MarineSniper1000 (8:12:34 PM):
u have family and friends around u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:12:43 PM):
its not the same
MarineSniper1000 (8:12:54 PM):
and u have a boy who treasures u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:13:05 PM):
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
MarineSniper1000 (8:13:15 PM):
yes honey
MarineSniper1000 (8:13:42 PM):
u will never be alone
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:13:49 PM):
i feel alone
MarineSniper1000 (8:13:59 PM):
because u r hurting
MarineSniper1000 (8:14:11 PM):
and u wont let anyone help u
MarineSniper1000 (8:14:38 PM):
u didnt answer what u want from me
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:14:49 PM):
u know that answer
MarineSniper1000 (8:15:01 PM):
no u tell me
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:15:18 PM):
i want what i cant have
MarineSniper1000 (8:15:30 PM):
im not tommy honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:15:50 PM):
i know
MarineSniper1000 (8:15:59 PM):
u have tommy in ur heart
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:16:09 PM):
but i want him in my arms
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:16:15 PM):
i want to hold him
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:16:17 PM):
to kiss him
MarineSniper1000 (8:16:33 PM):
honey u will find ur tommy in time
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:16:39 PM):
to tell him i love him
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:16:52 PM):
to tell him i need him
MarineSniper1000 (8:17:09 PM):
honey what if he was real and was killed in iraq
MarineSniper1000 (8:17:17 PM):
would u go on
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:17:33 PM):
eventually
MarineSniper1000 (8:17:48 PM):
and u will now
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:17:58 PM):
if u say so
MarineSniper1000 (8:18:25 PM):
u said u would if he was killed
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:18:52 PM):
then it would have been final
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:18:57 PM):
tommy is in u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:19:01 PM):
and ur alive
MarineSniper1000 (8:19:31 PM):
honey i wish i could be him
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:19:51 PM):
ur heart is him
MarineSniper1000 (8:19:56 PM):
because i want u in my arms
MarineSniper1000 (8:20:08 PM):
i weant u in my bed
MarineSniper1000 (8:20:21 PM):
to kiss and make love to u alnight
MarineSniper1000 (8:20:32 PM):
but i know i cant have that
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:21:03 PM):
i want u to be him
MarineSniper1000 (8:21:51 PM):
i want to be him
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:22:14 PM):
im sorry tom im not being fair to u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:22:24 PM):
im only thinking about me
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:22:27 PM):
and what i want
MarineSniper1000 (8:22:32 PM):
u should
MarineSniper1000 (8:23:27 PM):
honey what i did to u was wrong and one day i will pay for it
MarineSniper1000 (8:23:39 PM):
but u r paying for it now
MarineSniper1000 (8:23:58 PM):
i know ur tommy is out there
MarineSniper1000 (8:24:08 PM):
and u will find him in time
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:24:09 PM):
please stop saying that
MarineSniper1000 (8:24:27 PM):
i believe he is
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:24:40 PM):
i dont
MarineSniper1000 (8:24:54 PM):
i also believe u will find love and trust again
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:25:14 PM):
i dont
MarineSniper1000 (8:25:21 PM):
y
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:25:47 PM):
i just dont
MarineSniper1000 (8:26:00 PM):
u will in time
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:26:08 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (8:26:33 PM):
honey u have to have faith
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:26:41 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (8:26:58 PM):
when im gone i believe something good will happen to u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:27:09 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (8:27:14 PM):
y not
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:27:38 PM):
because
MarineSniper1000 (8:27:45 PM):
not an answer
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:27:53 PM):
yes i know
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:27:57 PM):
u always say that
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:28:10 PM):
who is going to keep me in line when u leave
MarineSniper1000 (8:28:38 PM):
u will
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:28:58 PM):
not doing a great job so far
MarineSniper1000 (8:29:05 PM):
i havent done such a good job protecting u
MarineSniper1000 (8:29:28 PM):
honey u r doing what u did when i fell in love with u
MarineSniper1000 (8:29:47 PM):
i will be with u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:30:01 PM):
no u wont u said ur leaving
MarineSniper1000 (8:30:14 PM):
but im in ur heart honey
MarineSniper1000 (8:30:35 PM):
honey what do u see us going with this
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:31:13 PM):
i dont know tom
MarineSniper1000 (8:31:25 PM):
we need to know
MarineSniper1000 (8:31:44 PM):
honey i want u
MarineSniper1000 (8:32:08 PM):
but u need someone that is closer to ur age
MarineSniper1000 (8:32:23 PM):
and u have to open ur heart to find him
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:32:37 PM):
i cant
MarineSniper1000 (8:32:46 PM):
u cant right now
MarineSniper1000 (8:33:15 PM):
honey u said u cant open up
MarineSniper1000 (8:33:37 PM):
what if ur tommy showed up
MarineSniper1000 (8:33:48 PM):
would u push him away
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:34:02 PM):
how will i know its him
MarineSniper1000 (8:34:33 PM):
by the way he talks to u and reminds u of ur talks
MarineSniper1000 (8:34:58 PM):
looking in those icy blue eyes
MarineSniper1000 (8:35:46 PM):
u arent ok r u
MarineSniper1000 (8:35:53 PM):
u r crying
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:36:09 PM):
yes
MarineSniper1000 (8:36:22 PM):
see i cause u nothing but pain
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:36:23 PM):
im ok
MarineSniper1000 (8:36:43 PM):
i must go and leave u alone
MarineSniper1000 (8:37:26 PM):
i only hurt u honey
MarineSniper1000 (8:37:42 PM):
will u do me a favor
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:37:56 PM):
yes
MarineSniper1000 (8:38:24 PM):
pray for me that i become a better person that cant hurt anyone like i
hurt u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:39:02 PM):
u wont tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:39:11 PM):
u know how bad it hurts
MarineSniper1000 (8:39:42 PM):
jessi i cant trust myself not to
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:39:57 PM):
yes u can
MarineSniper1000 (8:40:15 PM):
no jessi look at what i did to u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:40:51 PM):
u know how bad im hurting u wont do that to another
MarineSniper1000 (8:41:16 PM):
i know i wont because im not getting close to anyone
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:41:54 PM):
tom dont say that
MarineSniper1000 (8:42:03 PM):
i mean it
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:42:53 PM):
tom u have so much of my tommy in u and he had so much love to give dont
deny that
MarineSniper1000 (8:43:15 PM):
i dont have love in me honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:43:25 PM):
u do for me
MarineSniper1000 (8:44:02 PM):
yes honey but thats ur tommy in me
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:44:28 PM):
ur one in the same
MarineSniper1000 (8:44:55 PM):
i know honey but i wont ever hurt anyone again
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:45:15 PM):
will u do me a favor
MarineSniper1000 (8:45:32 PM):
what is that
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:45:46 PM):
dont let tommy die
MarineSniper1000 (8:46:11 PM):
he wont as long as he is in ur heart
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:46:17 PM):
let him live in u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:46:26 PM):
he will never leave my heart
MarineSniper1000 (8:46:34 PM):
no honey he wont live in me
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:46:48 PM):
please
MarineSniper1000 (8:47:07 PM):
i cant honey
MarineSniper1000 (8:47:19 PM):
im evil and u make tommy so pure
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:47:27 PM):
he is pure
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:47:44 PM):
u be him
MarineSniper1000 (8:47:57 PM):
im evil honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:48:28 PM):
no
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:48:34 PM):
u r not
MarineSniper1000 (8:48:41 PM):
honey i am
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:48:54 PM):
then what does that make me
MarineSniper1000 (8:49:13 PM):
u arent even close to being evil
MarineSniper1000 (8:49:21 PM):
u r pure like tommy
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:49:51 PM):
be him
MarineSniper1000 (8:50:20 PM):
sorry honey i wont ruin ur image of tommy
MarineSniper1000 (8:50:48 PM):
he is a pure boy
MarineSniper1000 (8:51:02 PM):
and im not close to being pure
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:51:55 PM):
he is wonderful
MarineSniper1000 (8:52:19 PM):
yes he is so u keep him in ur heart
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:52:40 PM):
i will
MarineSniper1000 (8:53:14 PM):
honey u will be fine without me bothering u
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:53:35 PM):
if u say so
MarineSniper1000 (8:53:59 PM):
u need to let go so u will heal but u promise me u will keep ur tommy
safe
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:54:34 PM):
i promise
MarineSniper1000 (8:55:06 PM):
u promise me u will give some thought of trying to find a nice boy and
giving him a chance
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:55:17 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (8:55:24 PM):
y not
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:55:29 PM):
i cant tom
MarineSniper1000 (8:55:45 PM):
u will with time
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:56:12 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (8:56:57 PM):
honey u have to give him a chance
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:57:21 PM):
i gave tommy everything i had
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:57:28 PM):
i cant do that again
MarineSniper1000 (8:57:46 PM):
honey u will but do it alittle at a time
MarineSniper1000 (8:58:26 PM):
do u want me to leave u alone for alittle while
TalHotBlondbig50 (8:59:13 PM):
i dont know
MarineSniper1000 (9:00:13 PM):
honey u can be honest i will leave if u want me too
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:00:35 PM):
i want to be held
MarineSniper1000 (9:00:38 PM):
y dont u want me to leave on sat
MarineSniper1000 (9:00:58 PM):
i would if i could but i know u want ur tommy not me
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:02:16 PM):
im sorry tom
MarineSniper1000 (9:02:32 PM):
dont be honey i understand
MarineSniper1000 (9:03:01 PM):
i will leave u alone
MarineSniper1000 (9:03:15 PM):
we can talk later if u want to
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:03:22 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (9:03:37 PM):
u can come find me when u r ready
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:03:43 PM):
ok
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:03:45 PM):
i will
MarineSniper1000 (9:03:56 PM):
bye honey and im sorry
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:04:04 PM):
byeee tom
TalHotBlondbig50 (9:04:07 PM):
so am i
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:38:06 PM):
u here
MarineSniper1000 (10:38:17 PM):
yes i am
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:38:47 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (10:38:55 PM):
r u ok honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:39:21 PM):
i will be
MarineSniper1000 (10:39:35 PM):
when
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:39:55 PM):
i dont know
MarineSniper1000 (10:39:55 PM):
im sorry jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:40:03 PM):
dont be
MarineSniper1000 (10:40:15 PM):
y i caused all ur pain
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:40:24 PM):
i let u
MarineSniper1000 (10:40:30 PM):
and i will cause u more this saturday
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:40:43 PM):
tom i cant take more
MarineSniper1000 (10:40:58 PM):
honey i cant keep doing this to u
MarineSniper1000 (10:41:17 PM):
i cant sleep or eat or do anything anymore
MarineSniper1000 (10:41:33 PM):
guilt has me so uptight
MarineSniper1000 (10:42:13 PM):
u r crying again arent u
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:42:24 PM):
i havent stopped
MarineSniper1000 (10:42:53 PM):
please honey i know u want me to stay but just look at what im doing to
u
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:44:04 PM):
i dont know what to say tom
MarineSniper1000 (10:44:30 PM):
honey i want u to find happiness but i know that will take time
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:45:01 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (10:45:15 PM):
u r so important to me baby
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:45:30 PM):
u sound like my tommy
MarineSniper1000 (10:45:33 PM):
but i cant be ur tommy
MarineSniper1000 (10:45:47 PM):
i want to be so bad honey
MarineSniper1000 (10:46:10 PM):
i want to do what u and tommy planned to do
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:46:30 PM):
i know
MarineSniper1000 (10:46:33 PM):
i would do anything for u jessi
MarineSniper1000 (10:47:00 PM):
if i could bring ur tommy to life i would gladly give mine for that
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:47:18 PM):
i know u would
MarineSniper1000 (10:47:28 PM):
i pray everynight for god to take me and give u ur tommy
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:47:41 PM):
tom
MarineSniper1000 (10:48:01 PM):
all i ask is he gives ur tommy my heart
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:48:50 PM):
please stop
MarineSniper1000 (10:49:02 PM):
that is the only part of me that is good
MarineSniper1000 (10:49:10 PM):
sorry
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:49:28 PM):
tommy is all good
MarineSniper1000 (10:49:35 PM):
y jessi y do u need me here
MarineSniper1000 (10:49:51 PM):
jessi my heart is the only part of me that is good
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:50:05 PM):
tom i cant keep doing this
MarineSniper1000 (10:50:24 PM):
do u want me to leave u alone then
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:51:02 PM):
r u leaving on saturday and never having any contact with me again
MarineSniper1000 (10:51:30 PM):
honey u just said u cant keep doing this
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:51:41 PM):
please answer
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:51:45 PM):
r u
MarineSniper1000 (10:51:55 PM):
yes
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:52:21 PM):
then u have to end it tonight tom
MarineSniper1000 (10:52:37 PM):
is that what u want
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:52:42 PM):
my heart cant go on all week to break again on saturday
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:52:52 PM):
i cant do it
MarineSniper1000 (10:53:08 PM):
then we both agree to end it tonight
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:53:21 PM):
r u ready to
MarineSniper1000 (10:53:26 PM):
no
MarineSniper1000 (10:53:38 PM):
i dont want it to end at all
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:53:44 PM):
but u r
MarineSniper1000 (10:53:55 PM):
but its killing me to see u like this
MarineSniper1000 (10:54:09 PM):
im ending everything honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:54:19 PM):
define everything
MarineSniper1000 (10:54:25 PM):
my life
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:54:32 PM):
how
MarineSniper1000 (10:54:36 PM):
im pure evil honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:54:58 PM):
tommy is not evil
MarineSniper1000 (10:55:00 PM):
evil doesnt belong in this world with something pure like u
MarineSniper1000 (10:55:12 PM):
tommy is in my heart honey
MarineSniper1000 (10:55:26 PM):
he is the only good thing within me
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:55:33 PM):
how tom
MarineSniper1000 (10:55:36 PM):
im giving him to u
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:55:40 PM):
how does it end
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:55:50 PM):
i will take him
MarineSniper1000 (10:56:01 PM):
keep him safe jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:56:07 PM):
always and forever
MarineSniper1000 (10:56:11 PM):
its all i can give u
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:56:20 PM):
how tom
MarineSniper1000 (10:56:24 PM):
i cant take the pain im causing u
MarineSniper1000 (10:56:36 PM):
shotgun
MarineSniper1000 (10:56:54 PM):
im a coward jessi im sorry
MarineSniper1000 (10:57:08 PM):
i cant take u hurting anymore
MarineSniper1000 (10:58:04 PM):
i ruined something so pure and innocent
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:58:12 PM):
when
MarineSniper1000 (10:58:26 PM):
sat
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:58:36 PM):
why then
MarineSniper1000 (10:58:47 PM):
everyone is gone
MarineSniper1000 (10:59:16 PM):
dont run to brian about this
TalHotBlondbig50 (10:59:29 PM):
why would i
MarineSniper1000 (11:00:08 PM):
im sorry jessi but for every second u suffer its ten times worse for me
MarineSniper1000 (11:00:26 PM):
i know i caused ur pain and suffering
MarineSniper1000 (11:01:23 PM):
something good will happen when im gone
MarineSniper1000 (11:02:38 PM):
i will leave u alone jessi
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:02:43 PM):
tom
MarineSniper1000 (11:02:55 PM):
jessi i love u more then u will ever know
MarineSniper1000 (11:03:16 PM):
whether its wrong or right i know what i feel for u
MarineSniper1000 (11:04:38 PM):
can i send u an email on fri or sat or do u want me to just stay away
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:04:50 PM):
u can
MarineSniper1000 (11:05:09 PM):
ty
MarineSniper1000 (11:05:35 PM):
i wont contact u anymore after tonight
MarineSniper1000 (11:05:53 PM):
if u want to talk i will leave my aim and yahgoo on
MarineSniper1000 (11:06:01 PM):
yahoo
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:06:02 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (11:06:14 PM):
its for the best honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:06:38 PM):
tell me goodbye then
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:06:45 PM):
make it final
MarineSniper1000 (11:07:26 PM):
goodbye honey i do love u but u dont need me ruining ur life anymore
MarineSniper1000 (11:07:53 PM):
i wish u all the happiness in the world
MarineSniper1000 (11:09:01 PM):
i hope u find ur tommy honey
MarineSniper1000 (11:09:13 PM):
u deserve him
MarineSniper1000 (11:09:33 PM):
i take it ur not going to say goodbye to me
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:09:43 PM):
i am
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:09:46 PM):
i have to
MarineSniper1000 (11:10:08 PM):
its time to close this chapter of ur life and move on
MarineSniper1000 (11:10:32 PM):
honey please stop what ur doing before u get hurt
MarineSniper1000 (11:10:58 PM):
teasing and flirting with him will only cause u problems
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:11:13 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (11:11:31 PM):
unless u want him honey its ur decision
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:11:39 PM):
i dont
MarineSniper1000 (11:12:18 PM):
im truely sorry for everything i did to u that caused u pain and
suffering
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:12:32 PM):
i know
MarineSniper1000 (11:12:33 PM):
im not sorry i fell in love with u
MarineSniper1000 (11:13:31 PM):
honey u r the best thingto happen to me
MarineSniper1000 (11:14:11 PM):
i will be with u forever honey always and forever
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:15:10 PM):
i have to do this
MarineSniper1000 (11:15:46 PM):
r u deleting me off ur computer
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:16:49 PM):
not yet
MarineSniper1000 (11:17:04 PM):
im waiting til sat night
MarineSniper1000 (11:17:44 PM):
honey u will heal faster without me fighting and talking to u
MarineSniper1000 (11:18:16 PM):
u have the best part of me in ur heart
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:18:51 PM):
ok
MarineSniper1000 (11:19:22 PM):
i love u jessica blair shieler
MarineSniper1000 (11:19:32 PM):
and i always will
MarineSniper1000 (11:20:04 PM):
i wish u all the happiness in the world honey i really mean that
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:20:14 PM):
i know u do
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:20:22 PM):
ok im ready
MarineSniper1000 (11:20:31 PM):
ok honey
TalHotBlondbig50 (11:20:52 PM):
goodbye tom
MarineSniper1000 (11:21:02 PM):
goodbye jessica
IM transcript, April 17, 2006
Jessi didn't know who to believe. Was there no Tommy? Or had Cindy
invented the story because she wanted Tommy for herself? Jessi found a
friend Montgomery had mentioned who also frequented Pogo:
"Beefcake1572," or Brian Barrett, a 22-year-old student at Buffalo State
College who worked part-time at Dynabrade with Montgomery and played
poker with him.
When Barrett confirmed his friend's trickery, Jessi was devastated. How
could her "everything," as she referred to Tommy, be a nothing? She
turned to Barrett for solace, playing Lottso, a kind of Bingo, with him
in the Princess Priceless room on Pogo and IMing him on Yahoo. Their
conversations quickly turned intimate. Soon, in public forums online,
she and Barrett called Montgomery a child predator and taunted him.
Montgomery was suspended from a game room. She shared her passwords with
Barrett, who would log onto her accounts and talk to Montgomery as Jessi
to humiliate him. At work, Barrett boasted about his new relationship.
Montgomery was furious. "Half the company" thought he was a "fucking
loser and predator," he IM'd Jessi. Parents no longer trusted him with
their kids. His life was so destroyed that he appeared to be
contemplating suicide. "U can say goodbye forever to me and Tommy," he
told Jessi.
Online Showdown
IM transcript, Brian Barrett and Montgomery face off, May 20, 2006
Warning: The following transcript contains strong language.
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:00:04 2006):
now i c it
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:00:14 2006):
i told her i would give her a chance to regain herself
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:00:18 2006):
u fucking lied to me about her
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:00:19 2006):
and not to lie to me anymore
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:00:27 2006):
and not to fuck with u and cause u any pain
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:00:36 2006):
so u both do
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:00:49 2006):
so r u going to see her
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:00:52 2006):
no
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:00:58 2006):
y not
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:01:24 2006):
going to conn to help my uncle move thur i have to bring things from his
old house to his new house in nc
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:01:42 2006):
i'm leaving my truck in nc and driving a uhaul truck down
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:01:50 2006):
i mean leaving it in conn
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:01:53 2006):
u both have been lying to me about how u feel about each other and about
the virus
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:02:18 2006):
the virus was real i sent it becasue i was pissed she lied to me
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:02:28 2006):
brian just go be with her and leave me out of this
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:02:40 2006):
and leave me alone
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:03:00 2006):
i trusted u and u lied so u and her belong together
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:03:26 2006):
well i mite not stay with her long i was talking to sharon again today
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:03:32 2006):
not anymore
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:04:00 2006):
doesnt matter u broke my trust so u can do whatever u want with whoever
u want just stay away from me
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:04:18 2006):
and no more heads up from stuhler or ron
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:04:23 2006):
k
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:05:19 2006):
i don't even really feel like dealing with all her bs. i don;'t know
what i want or what i'm going to do with her
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:05:33 2006):
and u made a cd for someone u didnt like what a fucking liar u and her r
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:05:45 2006):
u want her brian stop lying about her
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:06:11 2006):
u have been lying to me since what dec when u wanted her
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:06:15 2006):
she has a list of songs of a cd i gave sharon
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:06:24 2006):
i never new her in dec
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:06:33 2006):
how did she get it then u sent it to her
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:06:53 2006):
i sent her songs on yahoo
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:07:01 2006):
go pop her cherry she is a virgin and then u can deal with all that shit
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:07:18 2006):
now that u have her name on ur mini
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:07:22 2006):
i don't plan on it
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:07:42 2006):
she has my pw
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:07:44 2006):
u might as well it says it all on ur mini about u and her
tommyluvswvfox (Sat May 20 03:07:52 2006):
y didnt u change it
beefcake1572 (Sat May 20 03:08:21 2006):
because i'm givng her a chance, and i enj
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