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JUMPING INTO MOTHER'S LAP

by Tara Carreon

Sitting as a child of the universe 
which opens before my eyes
The Buddhist trademark
falls away from me for the last time
I’ll not peddle the Buddha’s goods
for the Buddha Corporation
Or sell my soul to commerce again.

I am a natural woman
undefaced by signs and symbols
Sitting on this earth
breathing molecules
That have circulated through the cosmos
since the beginning of time.

I am listening to my mother’s words of wisdom.

Take me into your arms
Enfold me with your spiraling galaxy arms
Light my way with your brilliant light
That shines in the deepest space
and in the eyes of deep sea animals.

Sitting in the posture of the fully human
I humbly bow to my human nature
I am already what I seek
The Buddhist logo is released from around my heart
And gently set aside forever.

I am whole, without virus,
clean of contaminants
Buddhist deities are washed away in the purification
No tyrant has a deed on my heart
Mother universe has cleansed me
and made me one with her.

My heart is your heart
My mind is your humble servant
I breathe at your command
I serve you with total dedication, mother.

I’ve missed you so much
Hold me close, I love you
I’ve been looking for you so long
And all along
you were right here in front of me.

What a wasted journey I’ve been on
I’ll never ignore you again
I am your humble servant
Until the end of time.

I shall study you
in the behavior of animals
In natural phenomena
In the movements of galaxies
In the kind words of saints.

In the music of angels
In my deepest most thoughts
In the wind in the trees
In sunsets streaked with orange.

In vast waves rolling across the ocean
In mountains rising high
In tiny insects looking for sustenance
In winter birds alighting
on snow covered branches.

Fill my heart with love
for all of your creation
Bless me with tolerance and justice
for those who would harm me
Help me bring happiness and peace
to those around me
Help me detach from my thoughts.

Help me give willingly to all who need help
Let me smile and have a peaceful disposition
Let me set aside sorrow and regret
And shine with the beauty of atoms.

Let me give encouragement to others
And walk with back straight and head held high
Sedate and dignified as befits
a servant of the great queen herself
Giving courage and hope to beings
beat down by sadness and failure.

Bringing back the twinkle in the eye
The calm majesty of being kind and open
This is my sacred oath
To leave confusion and torment behind.

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