The projective mind is a powerful magnet, it sucks you in
It’s easy to project outwards and get caught up in appearances
So when you sit down to meditate, what do you do?
Who are you going to search for?
Your lama or yourself?
It comes down to that in every moment of meditation.

I have the same problem, believe you me
I’m always searching for the lama
Realizing that, I have to gently disengage myself from old habits
And focus on self, another word for emptiness
It’s a struggle.

Last night I met a guru in a dream and my mind was powerfully attracted
The son of a great lama, rebellious, he didn't want to teach
He seemed tormented somehow, unable to come to terms with his expansive awareness
I was drawn to him like a bee to honey
But am I always going to be looking for someone besides myself?

I choose to look for me.
In the depths
The bottom of the well
Darkness
Looking for the ground
Looking for breathlessness
Who am I?
I get no answer.

The answer has something to do with breathing
Going down, then coming back up
It’s a natural balance
Life is in-breath; annihilation out-breath
You and the world; you and you.

True self is without concepts of self and other
Yet it’s important to get clear about your thoughts
Go ahead and do it
Follow your inner impulses
Body relaxed, spine straight, hands on knees
Eyes open or closed
Breathe
Everything for yourself.

Focus, but lightly
Now observe in stillness

The mind naturally moves down to the navel area
And deeper to where the butt meets the ground
'Til you connect with earth
Through the power of gravity
Go down in the earth until you reach the center
And can’t go any further.

Balance
Sitting in the center of the earth
Looking around in my dark cocoon
I am the lord of the universe
Someone got a problem with that?
Who am I?
Don’t give me the answer
I want to remain answerless.